In today’s world fear and worry are always being brought to forefront. You just have to turn on the news and you hear about all that is wrong in the world. It is so easy to believe that we are doomed and forget that God is in control even when we think He isn’t paying attention.
Even 25 years ago, before converting to Catholicism, I always had a sense of God’s presence but never really understood it. I still struggle at times to grasp the fact that He really does care and He is taking care of things even when it doesn’t look like He is.
I am participating in the CWBN blog hop and the topic is “How my faith helps me worry less.” What a tough one! I would like to say I have mastered worrying less. But I can honestly say, I haven’t. I still worry. But I find that I worry more when I refuse to give control over to God. When I play tug a war. Ok, God here it is….wait I want it back. I can do it. Really, I can. No, God I want you to take it. And so it goes back and forth. Right now, at this very moment, I am struggling with handing over something financially to God and let Him take care of it. I know I haven’t handed it over, because I am still full of worry about how to get it taken care of. In fact, there are a couple of situations in my life at this time that are a battle on my part.
So, I think where I am at on my journey is that I do recognize that God does not want me to spend time worrying about things. He wants me to trust Him enough to let Him take care of whatever situation I have asked Him to. But, I struggle with letting things go completely and trusting.
There are so many places in the bible that tell us not to worry. Here are a few:
“Peace is what I leave with you; it is my own peace that I give you. I do not give it as the world does. Do not be worried and upset; do not be afraid.” John 14:27
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
. “Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.” Psalm 55:22
Anytime I go through a tough time, a time requiring me to trust God and my failing to trust completely, I can look back and see how He worked it for the good.
In the big scheme of things I do think I worry less because of my faith. It’s always in the back of my mind in any situation that God knows what I need in order to grow and become more holy. Even if that means that something doesn’t work out the way I want it to. There is a reason to each and everything that happens. Even as recently as my job search and how badly I wanted the job I now have. I remember the night after my final interview and knowing there were two other candidates and praying that their interviews went well so that His will be done. And I meant it. Was I worried that I might not get the job. Oh yeah, I sure was. But I always knew that even if I was disappointed and didn’t get the job that it was up to God and it didn’t matter how well I did or didn’t do on the interview. I knew I had done my best but that God has a plan and I needed trust in that. Now, I have to fight the urge to ask God, “Are you sure I was the right person?” when I am feeling overwhelmed, or noticing my shortcomings and the battle heats up and I have to fight my way back to trusting in God and not worrying about the things that I really have no control over.
My faith helps me to remember that I am not in this alone. That the one who made me knows what is best for me. It helps me not give up when I think I am not going to make it. Holy week was a very busy week at work, being at a Catholic church and all. My assistant was on vacation. I am only a month into the job. I don’t know the parishioners well because I have only lived here since last July and I do not attend this parish. I was feeling alone and lost. It was Holy Thursday and no one had shown up to cover up everything for Good Friday. I couldn’t do it on my own. I didn’t even know where anything was. On my way to work on Friday in the car with tears in my eyes I said “God you put me here in this job, but I can’t believe you expect me to do this on my own. I need help! Please bring me the people who can help us to prepare for Good Friday.” I was at work not even an hour when I got a call from one of the parishioners asking if I had found the items he was looking for. But he then said, “I am going to take some time off work and come by see how I can help”. I got off the phone and said “Thank you, Lord” Once this gentleman showed up another parishioner showed up together we got things covered. on the way home from work I made sure to thank our Lord again for providing the help I needed. Looking at it today, I can see where God made me wait until I asked for His help. He is teaching me all the time. I need to learn to ask before I spend so much time worrying and trust that He will provide whatever help I need.
While I am still working on worrying less, I know that I am turning more to God on time of need. I may be delayed in remembering that He is only waiting for me to ask and he will provide what I need but I am learning. My faith grows every day through the trials that I face. My hope is to continue to grow in that faith and to worry less. I pray that you trust God and spend no time worrying in your daily walk with our Lord. God Bless!